John Ortberg writes that the disciples were always pestering Jesus with questions: “Hey Jesus, can I sit at your right hand? Hey Jesus, how many times do I have to forgive this guy? Hey Jesus, why was this man blind from birth? Hey Jesus, what’s this parable mean? Hey Jesus, shall we call down fire from heaven to blast the Samaritans? Hey Jesus, what do you mean in a little while?”
But don’t we have the same types of questions today? Ortberg continues: “Hey Jesus, why does this little boy have a brain tumor? Hey Jesus, why do hungry children keep dying and wars keep breaking out? Hey Jesus, why did my child run away? Hey Jesus, why did my marriage fall apart? Why did my father suffer from a crippling depression?”
In the last eight months, I have asked Jesus many questions about Kristen: Hey Jesus, why did she have to suffer so much? Hey Jesus, why take a 45-year-old incredible servant of God away from this sin-stained world where she was making such a difference? Hey Jesus, why would you take such beautiful model of a mom away from her children who was their biggest encourager? Hey Jesus, why take this beautiful wife away from her husband with this deep rich marriage that was an example to so many?
In a word, we ask: “Hey Jesus, this just doesn’t make sense…Why?”
I have not heard an audible voice, but I have heard some answers in the depths of my soul. Through his Spirit, by his Word, and within the body of Christ, I have heard His still quiet voice. He has said to me: Hey Kurt, I love you and the kids deeply. Hey Kurt, my ways are not your ways; my thoughts are not your thoughts. Hey Kurt, my plans are not to hurt or harm you, but to give you hope and a future. Hey Kurt, trust me. Hey Kurt, I will make everything right– be patient and wait on me. I promise…I will make everything right. Look at my record; look at my Son and His death. Base your hope on our history.
So I say with the songwriter: “My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus’ blood and righteousness…” So I keep trusting, keep waiting, and keep looking to Jesus.