Matthew 11
I’ve tried harder to love You, to love others, to be happy and joy-filled. It didn’t work. I couldn’t return to those early days. I never knew why. I’m beginning to realize now how I pushed You away with one arm and drew You close with the other. Fear and doubt still lurked in the shadowy corners of my wounded heart. I was double-minded and a double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.
I was guarding myself from You. Amazing – all this time, I’ve been keeping part of me, not fully surrendering to Your Great Love. That’s the difference, isn’t it! I used to let You love me fully. I used to bask in Your Love.
I have lived under a dark, oppressive cloud of condemnation and doubts and fears. I have been so blind to the true nature of Your Love for me. I have been seeking You and yet blocking You every day that I live. Now I see that all circumstances are because You love me. I believe you love me. I receive Your love.
I was trying so hard, but Your burden is light. Your yoke is easy. There is rest, there is joy, there is peace.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me,
for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
(Matthew 11:29-30)
Sunday, March 3, 2010 ~ Kristen Sauder
This really speaks loud and clear to my spirit! My favorite scripture of all time is this passage! The words of Jesus whispering to my anxious heart that He has been, is and will continue to give me rest when I seek Him with all my heart! Thanks again Sauder family for sharing Kristin’s words with us. We need them desperately!
These comments bring me such peace. I also try so hard to do the above and fear and doubt also lurk around in my mind; and these words help me. I will begin to sort through how I am blocking your love and not fully surrendering.
Thanks so much for sharing.
I changed my email address (see above) and I desparately want to keep getting these words of wisdom, love and peace.
Pam